Unspoken Words
Posted on August 6, 2007
This soul of mine is rather empty today…I really wanted to tell someone about what I thought and what was inside my soul but I managed to hold it all back. Silently, I looked at the people around me and just pretended that I was actually listening to them.
All day, I listened to the chattering of my friends, of strangers around me, of excited students, of the bored and restless, of the stressed, of the sorrowful, of the lectures half-heartedly, not wanting to listen, yet it was expected of me…
A friend once told me that I should get some professional help to help me change my negativity but I brushed her off with a sweet smile that belies my unspoken words and feelings and continued on with my life listening half-heartedly to the world around me.
Emotionally speaking, I told myself not to lose it, not to give up, but about half of those times, I felt the strong irresistible urge to to just let it all out on someone, to free my soul of it’s burdens. And I almost did as such…ALMOST. As I was about to shower an unexpected someone with my woes and sorrows, she, at the same time, turned to another friend of ours unintentionally to talk to her while a third friend was too engrossed with answering the tutorial question to even look at me, causing me to wake up from my reverie and stop myself before I made a huge mistake.
And so, I kept my silence and told no one of what was in my churning, burning heart. The unspoken words stayed unspoken as it should be.
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