There’s a place in
Your heart
And I know that it is love
And this place could
Be much
Brighter than tomorrow
And if you really try
You’ll find there’s no need
To cry
In this place you’ll feel
There’s no hurt or sorrow

There are ways
To get there
If you care enough
For the living
Make a little space
Make a better place…

(Chorus)
Heal the world
Make it a better place
For you and for me
And the entire human race
There are people dying
If you care enough
For the living
Make a better place
For you and for me

If you want to know why
There’s a love that
Cannot lie
Love is strong
It only cares of
Joyful giving
If we try
We shall see
In this bliss
We cannot feel
Fear or dread
We stop existing and
Start living

Then it feels that always
Love’s enough for
Us growing
So make a better world
Make a better world…

Heal the world
Make it a better place
For you and for me
And the entire human race
There are people dying
If you care enough
For the living
Make a better place
For you and for me

And the dream we were
Conceived in
Will reveal a joyful face
And the world we
Once believed in
Will shine again in grace
Then why do we keep
Strangling life
Wound this earth
Crucify its soul
Though it’s plain to see
This world is heavenly
Be God’s glow

We could fly so high
Let our spirits never die
In my heart
I feel you are all
My brothers
Create a world with
No fear
Together we cry
Happy tears
See the nations turn
Their swords
Into plowshares

We could really get there
If you cared enough
For the living
Make a little space
To make a better place…

(Chorus x3)

There are people dying
If you care enough
For the living
Make a better place
For you and for me

There are people dying
If you care enough
For the living
Make a better place
For you and for me

You and for me (x 11)

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Today is one of the rare times that I’m blogging something meaningful. So please read what I got to say, think about what I have said and perhaps just appreciate what I got to say and make a difference today!

Have you noticed the changing weather patterns lately everywhere that was reported by the media and probably experienced by you and or your families or relatives? Earthquakes, freak waves, erupting volcanoes, typhoons, heavy rains, flooding, landslides, snow, cold, heat, wildfires, droughts, all in all, a climate change. This is happening all around the world.

The recent earthquake and subsequent tidal waves in the Indian Ocean have caused many to wonder why God allows such disasters to burden the earth. Is there any reasonable explanation for these events that respects the concept of the benevolence of our Creator?

Taken from : Cristian Courier

Why are these disasters happening more frequently now than they did in the past? Is this due to the fact that the Gods are angry at how we are “up keeping” the Earth? Or is it Mother Nature’s way of saying “You human scums are loitering my used-to-be beautiful Earth!!”

People say that humans are the most intelligent being on the face of Earth because we have the ability to think and do what we want; know the right and wrong; are able to do things other beings are not able to do; we even have opposable thumbs!! Yay thumbs!!!

So if we humans are so superior, why is it that we tend to be destroying more than we can afford to destroy? At the beginning of time, we were allowed to survive on this Earth by living off the fruit of our natural surroundings, the clean clear water running in the river and the will to survive!

But sad to say, humans became greedier and greedier as each day passes by when knowledge came into grasp. People started building machines to help them be more efficient in life; houses to keep them warm and safe and factories to produce items, gadgets and food to help them through life. As time passes by, our greed grew and grew and we find ourselves chopping down trees in forests to make way for the human population and to build more buildings to sell and make a killing; to make tables, chairs, paper, books, matches and so on. We built more and more factories; factories that secrets out waste in the once beautifully clean and clear rivers; puffs dirty smoke in the once clear blue sky. Built machines that not only pollutes the air with it’s fuming exhausts and the noise it creates leaves no peace for the animals. Soon, animals and nature itself grows smaller and smaller. “This is the life!” we thought. But we were wrong. We started noticing that the air we breath have now become too polluted to breath in, the water too dirty to drink from and the city overrun by human creations causing every kind of pollution humans can think of…

“Regret” we thought, was too late. We have already in our minds condemned the Earth to hell and believing that the end was approaching. But what we didn’t want to know was that we can do our part today and make a difference to slow the damage on the world. Instead of using petroleum, switch to solar; instead of air conditioning, use the fan; instead of littering, use a garbage bin; instead of driving, use your legs to walk or switch to public transports.

Do your part today and keep the future save for our children and the future generations. Teach your kids to love Earth and do their part to protect and preserve. Without Earth, we would never have been born, never have met, and never have blogged!

So anyways, this morning, I woke up and started to point at my ceiling and guess what I said? Really, you can’t even begin to KNOW what I said xD I said :

“Lo and behold! What’s that I see in the sky?!“

Yea o_O I know…weird huh? What’s weirder was that I did the erm Gestalt’s “Empty Chair” theory, whereby, in this case, is the “Empty Space in Front of Me” theory where I constantly reply to myself. Heres how it went, can’t remember all cause I was still half asleep D:

“Lo and behold! What’s that I see in the sky?!”

“Is it an ant? A lizard? Or a flying saucer which looks like a two headed giraffe with a lion’s roar?!”

“Really?! Where?!”

“THERE!! Just above us!!”

“I see it!! No wait, that’s just a hole in the sky!”

“A hole?! Where?! Oh dear Lord!! We’re ALL going to die!!”

“Erm hello?”

“No time for pleasantries!! We’re ALL gonna DIE!! The WORLD is coming to an END!!”

“Excuse me…”

“We need a HERO!! We need HIRO!!!”

-Coughs- “Take off your specs dearie…”

“WHY?! Aren’t you listening to me?!”

“Yes I am, honey but won’t you just give me your glasses?”

-Hands over an imaginary glasses- (Note : Sleepers like me don’t sleep with glasses, we’ll ruin the shape D: )

-Wipes imaginary glasses with an imaginary cloth- “There you go honey”

-Wears the imaginary glasses- “Sweet mother in heaven! The hole is GONE!! YOU SAVED US!!”

-Falls back down into bed and snooze-

The End!

After that weird behavior, I kinda woke myself up after 10 minutes later and thought I was going mad from the fever D:

“Doctor!! I’m going MAD aren’t I?!” -talks to a self-

“Yes Jessica, this is DEFINITELY an obvious symptom or MADNESS.”

“OMG! Are you sure doc?!”

“Positive.”

“What are the other proof?!”

“The fact that you’re talking to yourself as if you’re a certified psychiatrist is one of the symptoms.”

“Oh dear…I see what you mean…”

-Laughs hysterically and goes into the kitchen and have lunch-

The End!

I know, I scare myself too…

Told you it was a weird morning…I only came to my senses like, after lunch when my dog stole my food and ate it leaving me to eat CARBOHYDRATES (Maggie Mee)!!! Yes, the dumb dog stole my food when I left it there on the table -.-” I really DISLIKE that dog D< I would have abused her a LONG time ago if I were a CRUEL person. But I’m not, I’m just EVIL.

I’m not gonna tell you who he is, and if you are the one I’m talking about and reading this, then DO know that I care and you can come to me anytime. Just don’t keep it bottled up…however, I just needed to put this all here and reemphasize on the points.

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Him : Hey you. Long time no talk

Me : Hye

Him : I’m depressed. Muchly

Me : !!! How come o.o

Him : Have you noticed that no one in JO takes me seriously anymore?

Me : Mmm?

Him : I have 3 people posted on my App. No one listens when I offer help. People override what I say. And all of my ideas are trashed. I just feel like all my effort has been wasted.

Me : Honey, people do take you seriously.

Him : Where?

Me : It’s just that people have rights to their own opinions too.

Him : I mean, just show me, I want to believe that.

Me : So they question your words.

Him : But it’s not that they don’t like my ideas, it’s that they disregard them.

Me : And MOST of the server is after the GM spot.

Him : Trash them and most of all ignore them!

Me : And we haven’t seen you in a long time D:

Him : Long time!?

Me : In game that is.

Him : I’ve Been Spending All My Spare Time Trying To Fix My Damn Computer! I CANT play! And NO ONE CARES. No one offers help, no one tried to send me anything.

Me : I’m NOT doubting you or anything D: and I’m not dissing you. I’m just trying to make sense of your doubts into words. And also, like I said, many of the people don’t know you.

Him : But that’s just it. Exactly, no one knows me after a year of working.

Me : Most people are new here.

Him : Not everyone. K* doesn’t even know my name.

Me : K* is bombarded everyday of his GM career, it’s hard to remember everyone.

Him : Yeah, everyone has an excuse. You know what, never mind. I just need a break. I can’t be around people like this. People who I spent my time on. People who I put my trust and faith in. The same people who have now completely destroyed everything I worked so hard at Jynx for.

Me : Are you sure that is what’s making you angry or the fact that you’re not respected anymore?

Him : Both! I didn’t DO anything. I actually did a lot, that at least I thought was somewhat worthwhile. And tell me if I’m wrong. But I thought that someone actually thought I was ok. I think I must’ve been wrong though.

Me : Honey, you’re not wrong to think this and they’re not wrong to think theirs too. It’s like I said, everyone has their own way of thinking. Be it good or bad. And I’m not saying yours is bad. I’m saying that you’re going about it the wrong way. Instead of getting angry at people not taking you seriously or knowing you, try to be patient and re-friend again.

Him : But when have I gotten angry? I took anger management classes. I take medicine everyday. I haven’t gotten upset since the eAthena issue.

Me : You don’t need anger management or meds, you just gotta think both ways. And you are angry now. And I know that. I have been going an angry phase just last week especially what with R* and D* and all. But things will WORK OUT!! I KNOW it. Know why? Cause I KNOW you can!

Him : Just tell me. What can I do? Spend my next 6 months obsesseing with Jynx as I have for the last year? I just…Jess I don’t know what’s happened. I tried so hard. I really did. I took classes. I contributed. I…*sighs*

Me : You must remember, this is a game, you can’t let it take over your life. Just enjoy it and even if you’re not a GM, you can still enjoy it no matter what.

Him : Yea, you’re right. I can’t can I?

Me : Life is short, we have to take things one step at a time, and that takes time so we just have to enjoy it…

Him : That sounds great. So know what? I’m done trying. No more donating. No more trying to do something right. Look Jess, just listen for a moment. So you understand my side of this whole thing. I live in Japan where everyone is perfect. My mother hates me because I’m not like her. I don’t get straight A’s only B’s and C’s. My adopted sisters loathe me for being born not adopted and my father is about to divorce my stepmother. Along with her is my half brother. My life is seriously fucked up, excuse the language, and Jynx right now is my hook. It is where I can be calm, where I can have a voice and where I thought I was actually someone so I put everything I can into it. I just…it’s everything to me.

Me : Life is fucked up. NOTHING is perfect!! YOUR life isn’t and MINE isn’t as well. That’s WHY we escape reality into the virtual. Look at everyone in the world. They believe in virtual reality and 80% of them have problems in the real world. But it’s NOT YOUR FAULT!! You’re YOU and they’re THEM!

Him : And for the next two years I am theirs.

Me : I know you’re FRUSTRATED about ALL of this cause I am too. Believe me, I feel FRUSTRATED about every single thing in my life. But I don’t do anything about it cause I know that I am what I am and most of the stuffs I think is my fault, it’s actually not mine. It’s just that I have been placing it all on me cause I WANT to think it’s MY fault and shit. But it’s NOT and that’s how YOU are.

Him : But how can you just let it go? How can you even sleep, let alone eat knowing that you might be able to help. That’s how I feel. THAT is who I am. I live my life full of guilt. And for better or worse. That’s me.

Me : I help by being in the sidelines even if I can’t get any spotlight. Even doing something small is FINE with me. I don’t need people to say “you’ve done good” cause you shouldn’t live for OTHERS. You should live for YOURSELF.

Him : But I can’t. Maybe I can, but I need help. I do things for others because when I do, I make others happy.

Me : Whatever good deed you do, at least you know you did something. Other people knowing you did good would still blame you for the small bad you did.

Him : I bring joy, excitement, or even just relief to people. But exactly! I do good, and it seems to go unnoticed. I don’t need thank you, I don’t need any gratitude, but I do need to know what I’m doing is worth it, that I’m not hurting anyone, and that what I’m doing actually affects someone positively, and if what I’m doing is unwanted, then it’s probably time to go, at long last.

Me : I know you TRY to do things to please and make people happy. I know that and it’s a good thing and I appreciate you doing that. But I know mine just isn’t enough so I’m just trying to be here for you like I always have but please, don’t make this take over your whole being…

Him : I guess I just need to give up. I just, I read what you write and my more reasonable side tells me you’re right no matter how much I hate it.

Me : It’s saddening when YOU’RE blaming yourself and giving up. I tend to cry when people become like that especially people I know. I know you very well, and it’s heart wrenching. I just want you to know that life isn’t just about Jynx. I used to want to be like you now, a Jynx loyaler but I can’t be that anymore. Not when it eats up my whole life. I want to live for me. I want to go out and be a real person. not a virtual being. At least I’ll be able to help people who have problems in the real world, not in a game where people escape to be a person without problems.

Him : But Jess, I can’t go out. I’m not allowed to go places. The most freedom I have is here, it’s not just my escape, it’s my life.

Me : Maybe not now, but in a few years time, you can.

Him : As depressing as it is, Jynx is my home.

Me : Tell me, as a school counselor, aren’t you ALREADY helping?

Him : For the next few years it really is going to be. Yeah, helping the middle school girls sort out problems with boys and vice versa.

Me : Well, take it as experience, build up your resume, be someone who can help those with serious problems in the future. What happens in real life doesn’t happen in game, not really. In real life, people DO die, people DO beat each other up and stuff. Not like in game where people can be alive again no matter how many times they have died.

Him : Don’t you think I know that?

Me : I know you do, I just thought you needed to be reminded is all.

Him : How’s my cousin’s arrest? That good nuff? Look Jess, I really appreciate where you’re coming from and you’re completely right. I’m done with helping JO for now. Sorry, I’m a bit bitter (talking to T*, and he’s attempting to be funny cause im pissed) but I just, I seriously wish I could just not care.

Me : Honey, nobody told you to NOT care. You can care as much as you want but just not let it affect your WHOLE entire being.

Him : How? I feel like the little girls asking me how to ignore annoying guys, but how do I do that? Like, I just do not know how.

Me : I don’t know exactly, but I have been making myself blog a lot lately, just being me, and that’s a good sort of therapy and I just kinda fell out of JO. I used to care a whole damn lot before my blog.

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Him : I can’t take advice from people I don’t know. I’m sure that right now I could be talking to some whacko psychiatrist who would prescribe drugs, dope me up and ask random Freud questions. But I went to you because I know and love you.

Me : Lol well, I’m a whacko psychologist to be you know >_> I could still tell you to drown your sorrow in drugs >_>”

Him : Well, I’m just a bit whacko anyways so it’s all good. Hah, tried that, ended up in the ER. Not so good (I don’t recommend it).

Me : What I’m saying is that, you could talk about your experience. Like your life and what you been through and how you are going to tackle it and stuff. Not everyone is perfect and people don’t like to read about perfect people to make them LESS perfect. Well, they do, but not everyone. I don’t like to read supermagazines to tell me I’m fat and ugly. I like to think of myself as me, a unique personality with my unique ways of doing stuff and my unique looks. And I’m not saying I thought of this 1 night and suddenly I’m all cured. I took years…MANY years…since I was 9. And now look, it’s been 11 years now, and I’m still not perfect. But so what?! Everything has a purpose. “What doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger“. Remember I’m here for you when you need me. And that I’ll always be.

Him : Kks, love you Jess, you’ve been a great help.

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Basically what I am saying is that life is like a game. But it isn’t a game where you can be resurrected from the dead and live again to conquer. But it’s a game of chance and luck and how you make of it. Once you put yourself in danger and risk your life, there’s no going back. You’ll be at a dead end with no where to go but carry on.

There are no such things like using time machines to go back in time, NO elixer of life, no healer can bring you to life when you’re already dead. Nobody laughs when people die in real life. Nobody goes around hacking other peoples lives and then when they return, laugh in their faces and say “PWNED!!“.

Life isn’t like that. Life shouldn’t be about the games you play, the thing we know is the “Stupid Box” which we named it the Computer, things that are designed to portray ourselves in simulations, things that are programmed to bring you enjoyment, things that can get you hooked and stuff. Things we call, computer games.

It’s just not worth it to throw your whole life from you just to be hooked on virtual reality and pretending that reality was just gone. It’s totally not…

Are you these kind of people? Hooked and drugged with Virtual Reality? Unable to turn back? Finding reality just so escapable?

Note :

* : Names are not mentioned to keep the privacy of those involved.