I don’t know why…but today, in the University computer lab…I suddenly burst into tears…and for no reason too! Weird isn’t it? Yeah, I thought it was weird too…

The funny thing is, I should have been bursting with happiness and joy and relief because I just finished re-transcribing the assignment’s transcripts last night until early this morning. What I meant was, I started doing it yesterday night…ALL night. Just because my assignment team wants me to pass it up yesterday afternoon. But of course, I didn’t la since I wasn’t done yet.

So yesterday, I intended to go home after class (6pm) to sleep but coincidentally, it was raining and to make it worse, I forgotten to bring my umbrella. So I called my mom to fetch me but she said she wasn’t home yet, after that I called my brother but he couldn’t fetch me as well because he was in the library down in old town :/ and my last resort, my dad, he was, not surprisingly, still at work as well. So what did I do? I walked home…alone…in the rain…drenched by the time I reached home.

When I reached home, I didn’t immediately bath but instead I went online to try and send the recording (assignment) to another team member. I had to search high and low for an uploading program that would upload the 2.4 MB recording and could be heard. After like 1 hour, I finally found it so I uploaded it and sent to my friend. With that done, I wanted SO BADLY to climb into bed. But again, I didn’t do what I wanted to do…instead, I stayed up to wait for my friend to finish her part of the transcript and send it back to me to check.

The transcript didn’t reach me until around 11.30pm and I STILL haven’t eaten or bath…and I started with the work. Chilled, bone tired, and hungry, I worked into the night and AT LAST! Finished at 6.30am today. I was SO BLOODY FUCKING HAPPY that I finished it ALL at last and went to bed still without bathing.

I know, “ewww” right? Definitely.

What was worse, on MSN, I had to read from my friend about ANOTHER friend’s emo story which I didn’t need. I broke when suddenly out of the blue, she told me that THAT friend ORDERED me to PRINT the assignment…FUCKING BITCH! I haven’t even finished and she’s ordering me about?! Who does she fucking think she is?! Just because she’s in an emotional break down because her fucking bastard of a BOYfriend (he’s not considered a MAN, his personality resembles a boy already bored with his new toy and moving on to a new toy) ignored her during his birthday party.

All I can say is “Wake the FUCKING up, GIRL!! You’re WAY better than he deserves!!! So stop being a fucking drama queen!!!”

So now, I’ve printed out the transcript, I then had that emotional break down…the thing is…it’s NOT a emotional thing. I just cried for no reason. So I had to run off and isolate myself to cry alone. Well…that’s all…I’m off now.

Why was I crying? I have no idea why, maybe you can tell me :s mungkinlah…dengan menangis, saya telahpun mengeluarkan nafsu-nafsu yang terpedam dalam did ku ini…sama jugalah dengan memblogkan emosi saya dalam blog ni hari ini.

Peace.

I mean, seriously, does no one have any care for polite society anymore?! Aren’t we all HUMANS and of FLESH and BLOOD with two eyes, two ears, a nose, a mouth and whatever a HUMAN has? Yes, when it comes down to it, we’re ALL humans!!! No matter the race, the language, traditions, colors or country. We’re all the SAME gawdamnit!!!

So what if some people got something better than others? So what if life treats him better than you? So what if you can’t get whatever you want? SO WHAT?!?! You could at least be POLITE about it!! Besides, this is what we call LIFE!!!

If you can’t even be polite enough to speak and mock someone in a language they understand, don’t you think you’re just a piece of filth? Not worth living in a world of HUMANS!! You’re not even an ANIMAL, you’re NOTHING!! Animals are too good for you, you piece of filth!! At least have the pride to say it out loud to them in a language they know! But then again, such filth like you who knows English but a COWARD to tell people directly in ENGLISH are not worth it.

Unlike you, I am mocking you with the INTERNATIONAL language, ENGLISH. Something ALL of us UNDERSTANDS. I could have used Malay or Chinese to mock you and to call you filth in other languages but NO, I will not STOOP to that level!! However, I am not so HIGH in the society level to stop myself from mocking all of you.

My rant is over. All I can say now is, I USED to know you but now, you’re just filth under my shoes irritating me to no ends. And I am not in a good mood now cause I haven’t been sleeping and eating right. Goodnight then Yubi, Damien and Maria. I hope you won’t stain your filth here. But then again, I welcome it <3!!