Trapped against a wall
Without any escape route to be seen
Darkness falls with yet another day passing by.

Another wasted day spent here
The soul’s becoming weaker
The fire of her heart slowly dying.

Shunned by her family and peers
Without a friendly face to aid her
She spend her days in the lonely corner.

Grasping desperately onto the edge of the cliff
She felt her fingers slipped and let go of hope
Falling deep into the never ending bottom never to be seen.

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Sad to say, yes, I admit I’m lonely. Are you lonely? But under what circumstances will you be pressurized to feel the ultimate loneliness? I don’t know that either…sometimes I guess, loneliness will help one reflect upon what they have done so far in life.

Today is one of my loneliest days to date. All I can think about all day was that people don’t like me for my eccentric personality. They see me as a joke and a person to make fun of. I guess I’m not surprised that I’m thinking about these. Who hasn’t.

But surface to say, I should know better than to let it affect me at all! I’m a future psychologist and I should know better than to let my emotions rule me, says my mom to me. But aren’t I only human? Don’t I have at least some rights to act human for once? I guess not…

Well, I guess only you (the readers) and I will ever know my weakness but then again, you don’t really know me do you?

Because there are no words to set things right
Nor hopes that one immersed in mourning hears,
I would not be the sun to end your night,

Offering a wisdom far too bright
To soothe your pain or put to rest your fears.
But I will watch with you until it’s light.

There must be time to grieve that sorrow might
Be equal to the love of days and years.
I would not be the sun to end your night.

For grief, before it breaks, must reach its height,
And tides must turn before one homeward steers.
But I will watch with you until it’s light.

There are agonies no friendship can requite,
A bitterness unstained till dawn appears.
I would not be the sun to end your night.
But I will watch with you until it’s light.

Poetry by : Nicholas Gordon

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This poetry perfectly describes a friendship that has gone through many hardships such as mine. Trial and errors are a must to help strengthen the bonds of friendship. Without these trial and errors, a friendship can never be for it would be as if a whole cucumber sitting beside a whole carrot, each an individual of it’s own.

With trial and error, both the cucumber and the carrot, finely chopped, mixed together would bring about a whole new enhancement. Just like friendship, you’d need to go through some hardships together to know each other better and this would help strengthen the bond already formed.

I hope you are reading this and understand how I feel about us. We’ve hit a rough spot and I don’t want that to ruin our friendship for your friendship is what I cherish most. I love you, my friend

Well, I’ll think of that later, now however, is time to reveal my desktop!

Purple Moon

And that, boys and girls, ladies and gentleman, is how my desktop looks at the moment. Isn’t it a lovely shade of purple? And yes, I have this obsession with purple for quite a LONG while now, tee hee hee…I occasionally change my desktop picture to a different one whenever the sight of my current one is causing me to feel a little disgusted or nauseous. I know, weird right? Well, weird is good cause that enhances my eccentric-ness.

So now that I’ve done my part, what was it that I was suppose to do again…? Oh right! I’d have to now tag like, 5 other people to do this tag. So okay, here goes! Erm…erm…erm…erm… -Sobs- …I have no one to tag! T_______T!!! Isn’t that truly sad?! Yeah, I think so too !!!

Taggees : Guang, KucingMafia

Well, I’ll just scout around and tag someone when I find them, until then, my taggees are at the moment, two.

[TAG STARTS HERE]

My Desktop Free View Instruction:

1. Upon receiving this tag, immediately perform a screen capture of your desktop. It is best that no icons be deleted before the screen capture so as to add to the element of fun.
2. You can do a screen capture by:
   1. Going to your desktop and pressing the Print Scrn key (located on the right side of the F12 key).
   2. Open a graphics program (like Picture Manager, Paint, or Photoshop) and do a Paste (CTRL + V).
   3. If you wish, you can “edit” the image, before saving it.
3. Post the picture in your blog. You can also give a short explanation on the look of your desktop just below it if you want. You can explain why you preferred such look or why is it full of icons. Things like that.
4. Tag five of your friends and ask them to give you a Free View of their desktop as well.
5. Add your name to this list of Free Viewers with a link pointing directly to your Desktop Free View post to promote it to succeeding participants.
6. List of those who participated in the tag and place your link below:
   • iRonnie
   • thesserie
   • skippyheart
   • domlawrenceosb
   • sasha-says
   • maiylah’s snippets
   • My Memoirs
   • AniqueAnik
   • Criz’s Sanctuary
   • Bell’s Blog
   • The Undeniable Beauty – Revamped

I sit here, in front of the computer, staring aimlessly at nothing in particular;

Nobody interesting is on MSN to entertain me;

Nobody in the blogging community to awaken my stimulating brain that has aparently gone into a slumber;

Nobody on my phone list that I wish to have any conversation with;

Nobody in my family free enough to take my challenge of the wits;

Nobody to interest me at all.

School is a bore;

Lecturers are a bore, they need to go back to school to learn how to make a better impression;

Tutors are a sore, one is gay, another is more casual than her students, one is illiterate in English, another tend to be too cheery and highpitched and the last is mad at us for not having our textbooks;

Classes are boring, I see students leaning their heads on their hands, hair covering their eyes in hopes that the lecturers don’t realize that they’re actually asleep, people blatantly ignoring the lecturers and talking and laughing with their fellow friends;

Breaks are a pain, half an hour break after every class, I understand, but one starts to wonder when we are faced with 3 to 4 hour-long breaks at one shot few days in a row;

Assignments are a pain in the neck, days are short and students tend to do last minute work, lecturers are a devil to even suggest we only have at most 25 pages when what we need are 35 pages;

Exams are a drag, tips are worthless for we would still need to read every single bloody thing;

University do not interest me at all.

My life revolves around the computer and University,

Both are nothing but a sore to my brain,

So what is there left for me,

But to go into a deep slumber,

Never to wake,

Never to see,

That life is a drag,

A drag that may never end…

Well girls, I hope you like it Coincidentally, both their blogs are based on the colors…-drum rolls- …PINK!! So here you go pink babes!

For Pinksterz

For Maggie

I hope you both like them. If you want to have any changes done, please don’t hesitate to tell me about it since I still have the worksheet in my computer.

Note : Click on the picture to go to another page where you will be able to see the full view of the banners. After that save it in your computer and upload it into your own blogs. This is so that it won’t exhaust my blog bandwidth

Credits : Vectors/Renders from Deviantart.

Prosumer version 1.4

This month’s theme is called Prosumer (version 1.4). This wordpress theme is a tidy little theme. It’s a three column theme with sidebars on both the left and the right. This theme, I can say, deviates from the themes I would normally used. Most of the times I would use themes with only black, blue and white. However, this theme says otherwise. For it’s yellowish.

This theme is one of the few themes I have found to be the nicest theme. Especially since it has 3 columns. Most of the time, 3 column themes are made with advertising in mind and it’s very well made. However, this is different. It’s both simple and easy on the eyes.

Please note that when browsing my blog, it is advisable to use Mozilla Firefox. This is to ensure that you are viewing this site as it was originally meant to be seen. However, if you are using Internet Explorer, it would be best viewed using IE7 which is about the same as Mozilla Firefox.

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Check out my Harajuku Doll! Doesn’t she look all chic and funky all at the same time? Ok people, now that you’ve seen the doll, won’t you vote for her? By voting, you get me a little closer to winning the contest made by Nuffnang for bloggers!!

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Would you not help me find this brain please? Possibility of it taken by a brain eating zombie is at a all time high.

Save the innocent brain from being eaten alive! (I myself prefer well done )

Possible location of my runaway Inspiration.

Would you all be a darling and fetch me my brain and inspiration please?

July Layout

So here it is. My new layout created by rkcorp called the Nobus. it’s a fairly simple layout and clean as well as BRIGHT! If any of you seem to find any problems with this layout, please do not hesitate to inform me about it. Oh yea, just so you know, my blog is more compatible to Mozilla Firefox Users and would look BETTER using a resolution of 1024 x 768 in your display settings.

Edit :

Changed my layout into a different one. Also a shade of grey but I happen to like this layout better.

July Layout Edit

This layout was created by YGoSearch called YGo Lonely. I really like the name “Why Go Lonely?” Why? Because I’m single hahahaha! Single = Lonely…NOT! Single is awesome half of the time. Besides, I haven’t found someone who meets my expectations yet

“What’s your expectation of someone you’re gonna have as a boyfriend or girlfriend?” Hmm…I don’t want a skinny guy, all bones and no flesh is a pain in the ass. A guy who is honest who says “You look fat today.” A guy who knows when to comfort you and when not to “You may be fat but who cares!” A guy who knows when to pamper you “Wanna go get some ice cream?” A guy who likes you for who you are.

What’s YOUR expectation of your partner?

Found out that “Pay Less Books” went under and isn’t there anymore so decided to go to the top floor bookshop and look. Decided that it’s more of a stationary slash schoolbook shop than a bookstore.

Disappointed, I went down, looking left and right, hoping to find another bookstore. Somehow I looked suspicious and was approached by the security dude in blue.

He asked my destination though I don’t really appreciate the “Ah Moi” part. And I told him my purpose. He pointed out the “Big Bookstore” up on the 3rd floor, I explained that I wanted a DIFFERENT bookstore and he kindly pointed out the book clearance.

Appreciative of his helpfulness, I walked purposeful towards my destination and found the place. Looked and looked I did but even after rounding the place at least 5 times, gave me no results. However, I did manage to snag myself a FEW reading materials.

Five books for only RM 64!!

Book Titles and Authors : (From middle, clockwise)

1. Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief by Rick Riordan
2. The Journey of Socrates by Dan Miller
3. The Geographer’s Library by Jon Fasman
4. The Cardinal of Kremlin by Tom Clancy
5. The World to Come by Dara Horn

During my book spree, apparently the local radio station, Mix FM was having an event, the event where people rush to a certain spot mentioned by the radio and talk to someone known as the “Mix FM Super Shopper” or something or other. And boy, was I asked MANY times!!

The first few got this response :
“Hi, are you the Mix FM super shopper?”
“Erm…no?”
“Okay, thanks.”

The next dozen or so :
“Hi are you the…”
“No I’m not”
“Oh sorry.”

The few unfortunate ones :
“Hi…”
-Gets mildly irritated at the million of disturbance while trying to browse the cheap books-
“No I’m not. KTHXBAI”
“Oh sorry, thanks.”

And that was the end of my “uneventful” day. Still haven’t got what I want yet…but hey, I got myself something anyways