Banner for Pinksterz & Mag
Posted on August 3, 2007
Okay, today I had some spare time and I did a couple of banners for both Pinksterz and Mag. It’s not very well done. But it’s, to me nice enough 
Well girls, I hope you like it 
Coincidentally, both their blogs are based on the colors…-drum rolls- …PINK!! So here you go pink babes!
For Pinksterz
For Maggie
I hope you both like them. If you want to have any changes done, please don’t hesitate to tell me about it since I still have the worksheet in my computer.
Note : Click on the picture to go to another page where you will be able to see the full view of the banners. After that save it in your computer and upload it into your own blogs. This is so that it won’t exhaust my blog bandwidth 
Credits : Vectors/Renders from Deviantart.
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August Layout
Posted on August 3, 2007
It’s that time again! Yes, time for a whole new look on The Undeniable Beauty - Revamped!! What would this month’s layout look like? Well, I’m sure you can already see how the layout looks like if you’re reading this but heck! This is for memory purposes for the future
Prosumer version 1.4
This month’s theme is called Prosumer (version 1.4). This wordpress theme is a tidy little theme. It’s a three column theme with sidebars on both the left and the right. This theme, I can say, deviates from the themes I would normally used. Most of the times I would use themes with only black, blue and white. However, this theme says otherwise. For it’s yellowish.
This theme is one of the few themes I have found to be the nicest theme. Especially since it has 3 columns. Most of the time, 3 column themes are made with advertising in mind and it’s very well made. However, this is different. It’s both simple and easy on the eyes.
Please note that when browsing my blog, it is advisable to use Mozilla Firefox. This is to ensure that you are viewing this site as it was originally meant to be seen. However, if you are using Internet Explorer, it would be best viewed using IE7 which is about the same as Mozilla Firefox.
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A tag for charity
Posted on August 2, 2007
A while back, a couple of bloggers unmercifully tagged me to do a rather long tag. Who are they? They’re Bell and Criz. Apparently, this tag is for charity and was originally made by Idham. So thanks to these individuals I would now begin the tag -pifs-
There are 27 questions here but out of the 27 questions, I could either do all of it or just 17 questions or more. So I have decided to do those that I want to do and forgo those I couldn’t answer
1. A person is only as good as………their word.
2. Friendship is always………something to be cherished.
3. To love is to………to be loved.
4. Money makes me………want to buy stuff.
5. I miss………being myself.
6. My way of saying I care is by………not caring.
7. I try to spread love and happiness by………making you part of my slave empire.
8. Pick the flowers when………
9. To love someone is to………prepare to have your heart broken.
10. Beauty is………in the eyes of the beholder or in other words, in my blog
11. When I was thirteen, what I remember the most was………
12. When I was twenty one, I remember………nothing (cause I ain’t 21 yet).
13. I am most happy when………I am not having a moody day.
14. Nothing makes me happier than………being asleep in my own bed.
15. If I can change one thing, I will change………the world.
16. If smiles were………like rain, then I………would have dried up.
17. Wouldn’t it be nice if we could………have died together instead of just you alone?
18. If you want to………win, then you have to………work for it.
19. Money is not everything but………it’s still something.
20. The most touching moments I have experienced is………when Greg and I were still together.
21. I smile when………I find something is funny.
22. When I am happy, I………tend to be hyperactive.
23. If only I don’t have to………, then………I’d be………
24. The best thing I did yesterday was………
25. If I ever write a book, I will give it this title, “………Life without Direction“
26. One thing I must do before I die is………make sure I have a will and say “I love you” to people I care.
27. Doing this meme, I feel like………a meme doll doing memes
Now that I am done with this meme, all I have to do now is to tag some people to do this tag. After browsing through my list of bloggers, a lot of them have already done this so I hereby choose not to tag anyone from my blogroll and tag everyone who reads this post. So feel free to do this tag as you please
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Vote for my Harajuku Doll
Posted on August 1, 2007
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Type <GS11587> and send to 28700
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Check out my Harajuku Doll! Doesn’t she look all chic and funky all at the same time? Ok people, now that you’ve seen the doll, won’t you vote for her? By voting, you get me a little closer to winning the contest made by Nuffnang for bloggers!!
By voting for my Harajuku Doll, you are indiscriminately helping me to get closer to the prize shown above.
This is a contest hosted by Hotlink (012) and now it seems that Hotlink has allocated a exclusive prize just for Nuffnangers. And to get this prize, I would need ALL your votes! ^^ So start voting now using the method mentioned above! If you voted for me, thank you! Leave your voter’s voice in the comments so that I may remember your kindness ^^
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I signed up for PPP!
Posted on August 1, 2007
A few months ago, after starting my new blog (after branching off from wordpress), I joined payperpost. However, I could not have done any sponsored posts as of yet due to the fact that I had to start blogging from day one again for a full 3 months or in other words, 90 days.
I got to now about payperpost through while browsing through other bloggers who dwells in the world of payperpost. Before I knew about this method of earning money, I would never have known that one could earn money from writing and posting in their own blogs. Imagine the amazed look in my face when I found out!
As of yesterday, after receiving the green light to start earning money by blogging, I saw a few good opportunities already there waiting for me to grab on to it. To say the least, I am hoping that by blogging sponsored posts, I would be able to widen my field of blogging by having other stuffs like products and such to make my blog go round.
Besides, then I’ll have an excuse to buy the products and test it out myself and to blog about it abashed to say, this is my very first sponsored post and I hope that there would be more opportunities thrown my way since I’m only just beginning
I can’t say that I am a problogger and I wouldn’t say that I would ever give up on my studies to be a problogger to earn money via my bloggings; I would say that this is more of a way to earn side money for my domain and blog hoster, also, I would say that this is actually a good way to start saving money for the future, hmm?
I do know a few people who blogs sponsored posts and really, I am amazed at the creativity they put into writing those posts. I would have thought that it’s be kind of boring to do this all the time but I guess they know how to pace themselves. Hopefully I can too, though, I have to say that earning money by doing what I love most is just too awesome
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8 Randoms Facts You’ll Wanna Know About Me
Posted on July 29, 2007
Just a few days ago, while I was still struggling to stay awake due to last minute assignments, a ShoutOut blogger was stuck with doing a tag and when it was his turn to tag someone, I got tagged! This blogger’s name is AlvinC. So now, I am being obligated to do this tag. And to those that I MIGHT tag, beware!!
These are the rules for this meme/tag.
- Each blogger must post these rules first.
- Each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
- Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules.
- At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
- Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.
Now that we’ve got the rules established, let’s start finding out the 8 random facts that you might never have known about me
- I am the writer of the Barney Syndrome research and the Blog Addiction-Withdrawal Syndrome research.
- Currently I am recruiting slaves as well as loyal servants to serve in my world when I have conquered the world and later, the universe! So far, I have collected about 20 slaves all in all. So what are you waiting for? There are benefits in joining my slave regime…and that is I won’t torture you to a death so horrible you’ll feel like dying a gazilion times than allow yourself to face death in my hands >D
- I’m a very emotional person when it comes to being by myself. Hard on the outside and, fragile on the inside…I hurt easily but that is only if the fortress falls.
- I love reading a lot. Reading is my pleasure, whenever I have the time, I have a go at 5 books in one day.
- I used to want to be a writer and perhaps write a book or two but found that my talent in writing is as normal as the next person and decided not to.
- I have a fear of heights since I was a child. Why? Because when I was a child, I went to the amusement part and went onto a ride, at the top, I almost slipped off the seat and fall to my doom due to the loose handles that was suppose to hold me in place especially at the top.
- I love my parents, my dad especially, I have always wished that when I found someone I love and to live with for the rest of my life, it would be someone like my dad.
- I love white chocolate, purple, blue, brown, and black colors, my cats, and my desire to be ruler of the world and of hell
Now that I’m done with that, I’m sorry to say, I would have to break this tag on my blog because of personal issues and because I know for a fact that many of you in my blogroll have ALREADY done this tag. So please, if any of you wants to do this tag, you are welcome to do it. But remember, if you want to do it, leave a comment so that I can add your name down in this post ^^
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Another day, another tear…
Posted on July 28, 2007
The last day of the mid-terms, a day to rejoice. Sadly, I wasn’t celebrating with the rest…somehow, the mood just wasn’t right for me today…I barely said 50 words today and couldn’t even muster the ability to smile when people left right and center was smiling at me with happiness radiating in their faces…
Sad to say, as their happy, cheery face laid their eyes upon my gloomy, moody face, their happiness dissipated momentarily…
As if this weren’t bad enough, I asked my mom to fetch me, she couldn’t thus asking my brother to fetch me, he couldn’t so I had to walk…before that, smiling friends all around me were walking in and out of the University foyer, merrily talking to each other as my melancholy face looked upon them, hoping to join in, wanting to, but couldn’t…
People who knew me, thought I was waiting for a ride, which I was until my brother had to take his friend home…after they left from my sight, I started walking…I didn’t want them to know I was walking instead of waiting for my ride…I just didn’t have the mood to stand and wait…
And walked I did, today, the tears wouldn’t come for I did not allow myself to think about anything other than trying to avoid getting killed on the road. Nothing was in my head today, nothing to remember on, nothing to see past…
As I reached home, my head, still empty, started monologuing with my weeping heart…
“How are you today thy heart of mine?”
“Sad…so very sad…”
“And why are you sad, dear heart?”
“Because I’m lonely…”
“Why are you lonely, poor heart?”
“Because…because…because…I don’t know…”
“It’s okay my poor sad heart…I understand…for I am as sad, lonely, confused, and lost as you…”
After having tasteless lunch, I went to the salon I usually go to to have my hair cut. And it’s now all bald-like…well…not really…it’s just short now…and that is the truth…and after appraising my new hairstyle, I came back home and am now posting this here post…
Anyone looking at me now would think of me as a ice queen, emotionless and heartless, nothing could be conveyed by just looking into my face…nothing…
I wish I could say the same for my weeping, broken heart…
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Crying in the Rain…
Posted on July 26, 2007
As I stepped out of the University foyer and onto the watery path outside, I instinctively took out my tiny pink umbrella out from my bag and opened it in hopes that it would shield me from the rain…
As I walked out from under the shielded walkway, I walked slowly out towards the road leading to my home. I looked around me and see people walking hurriedly to avoid reaching home late and drenched…
As I walk slowly down the road, I thought to myself of what beautiful weather this is to sleep in…I love the rain, the whole concept of rain. However, on this nice rainy day, all I saw was gloom hanging around me.
Clutching my file tightly in front of me, I silently walked down the muddy, grainy, slippery road and pathways. Somehow, inside, I felt a sudden loneliness overcome me, the loneliness grew in size as the seconds passed…
I felt like crying, sobbing, and laughing hysterically. But I did not. The tears wouldn’t flow out and neither would the laughter. But this wasn’t the case inside…on the inside, my heart ached and stabbed me multiple times in the heart as if a knife was drilling into my already broken heart…
As I continued to walk down the gritty road and pathways, I thought of my loneliness…of why the sudden feeling that was overwhelming me. And then it came, the second voice in my head started to belt out sad, moody songs while narrating to me my life story…
As an infant, to childhood, adolescence, and the now…of relationships, friendships, hardships, and other ships…of how I’ve come so far to just break down…of how I could have broken down before from love, betrayals, hate, lies, and negativity…
In my head, I see my loved ones pulling away from me, leaving me on a deserted playground to fend for myself, looking at their retreating backs, I hear them snicker at my pitifulness…I see my beloved loves, the men in my life, of the betrayal I left them with…I see my friends, the people I confide in, the companions in my life…of the untold stories behind us all…
In my mind, the rational side is telling me to accept these people who wanted to help me many times before. And of those many times, I have rejected. Irrationally, I didn’t need their help…I have always helped myself when it comes to times where I can find no way out, I felt the need to push them away from me, the need, to be alone…
As I continue to think of these, I felt my legs buckle in front of me causing me to almost fall in the middle of the road, in the rain. However, I was able to steady myself and thought to myself that, even if I did fall, the pain would still not leave…and again, I felt myself trip due to the slippery pathway and felt the gravel poke onto the flesh of my toes…
Because of this, the tears started to flow, and flow, and flow and I couldn’t stop myself. The tears came fast and hot causing my vision to blur and I started worrying about losing my contact lenses so I tried to keep my eyes slitted so that it might stay rooted to my eye even as I cry…
As I cried, I felt that I could have died for I was blindly walking across roads to go back home…and indeed, I was almost gunned down by cars zooming past me left and right, but I was lucky all three times.
After reaching the other side of the road, I started to go back deep in thought again as I was finally safe on this side of the road. Tears still running down my face, I thought of how I have pushed many people out of my life ever since I felt the bitter taste of betrayal by my so-called friends in my childhood years, I was never the same after I made the same mistake in my adolescent years…and now, I feel my heart tearing itself as I continue to remember all the lonely times I had since young…
By now, I was sobbing as I walked up the tiny hill back to my house, I couldn’t stop myself as I felt like pulling my hair out by the roots from my head but I did not. As I sobbed, I could see people looking at me as they walk past but I didn’t care, I couldn’t stop…
At that moment, all I could think of was the people around me who I cared and or didn’t really cared about at all. It seemed that they played a role in my life, I just didn’t want them to come too near, afraid that it might make me more vulnerable…the loneliness by this time was so overwhelming that I felt like banging into a car, but I did not…
Reaching the sanctuary of my house, sobbing uncontrollably, I made a beeline for my room and locked myself inside the toilet in the room, I left the shower on and sat underneath it with my clothes still attached and cried and cried and cried…after calming down, I took a long shower and dinner and wrote here…
I have never felt so alone in my life…and being this lonely, it scares me and yet, deep inside…I feel and want to be alone…
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Sinking into oblivion…
Posted on July 25, 2007
Beware : The content of this post may contain deeply depressing and deep stuffs. If you want to experience extreme hollowness and deep sympathy, then please continue on, if not, MOVE ON!!
Note : This is not a literature but common rantings of my heart…
My previous rant : Pure Unadulterated Hate
As I sit here writing this article, my body is shaking in frustration, there is an itch inside of my body that I yearn to scratch…it’s truly unbearable…my head aches in pain, the voice inside screams to be freed, the voice screams and screams and screams…
“WHY IS THE WORLD SO FUCKING UNFAIR!!! WHY AM I THE ONE TO RECEIVE THIS “GIFT”?!?!?! WHY COULDN’T IT HAVE BEEN ALL THE OTHER FUCKED-UPS OUT THERE WHO HAVE SINNED AND SINNED OVER AND OVER AGAIN?!?! WHY ME?!?!?!“
Can life be anymore unfair? Why is the Lord taking my life into his hands? Why can’t he leave it up to me when I wanted to die? Why must he take the strings of time and shorten it? WHY?!?! Have I sinned, my Lord? Have I done something in my past life to have deserved such a punishment? Or do you have a personal grudge on me that needs to be scratched?
“WHY ARE YOU CONDEMNING ME INTO THIS FATE WHERE I HAVE TO CHOOSE BETWEEN THE KNIFE AND MEETING YOU, MY MAKER!! WHY COULDN’T YOU HAVE MINDED YOUR OWN BUSINESS AND LEFT MY LIFE UP TO ME!!! WHY COULDN’T YOU HAVE CLOSED AN EYE AND WALK AWAY?!?! WHY ARE YOU PULLING ME AWAY FROM MY LOVED ONES AND THE WORLD?! WHY ARE YOU BEING SO COLD AND CRUEL?!?!“
They say that I’m not suppose to hate you, Lord. They said that it’s me whose at fault, I who didn’t want it to begin with, I who had no inkling of what is happening to me, I who am afraid of burdening my family, I who am not Your devotee…but why did You have to condemn me for being all those? Do You not have enough devotees to kill off to be Your minions? Why me? Am I not good enough to live for at least another 70 years on this earth You had created?
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“It’s very treatable. All you have to do is go for the surgery and get rid of it”
“How much would the surgery cost me, doctor?”
“…it’ll be a lot, that is for sure, but the most important thing to do here is get you to do the surgery and be treated for chemotherapy…”
“I’ll have to think about it, doctor…”
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Did You like to see my saddened face? My downfall in life as I blindly walk through life? My emotionless eyes look around me, I see everything yet I see nothing, nor could I hear nor speak…tears are coming to me as I thought back on my short lived years…20 years, Lord. That was all You wanted to give me, wasn’t it? Was this planned from the beginning? Since the day I was born, perhaps? If You had wanted me so much, why didn’t You just take me at birth? Why now? Now when MORE people will get hurt and mourn for my leaving?
You are truly cruel, Lord. Yet people see You as THEIR savior, THEIR Lord beyond the pearly gates of heaven…yet you tear love ones apart and leave them all in desolation…
But guess what, Lord. I shall not give in to this fate that You had created for me. I shall live my last days happy, my family shall know nothing of it and be clueless of the cruel crime You have committed till the very end, cutting short their pain and leaving all the burden of mourning to me until I give out my very last breath…
But needless to say, You have my pure unadulterated hate for the rest of my pitiful life, now and forever, I shall not forgive you and will never when I see the ashen-ed faces upon my loved ones when my time grows near. Till then, I shall let them believe nothing is wrong and everything is right in the world, Amen.
And now…again today I am here talking about the oblivion that I am falling into…this time however I fear nothing would ever be right…due to anger and thoughtless words, we are all at odds with each other. I shall just rant here and if any of you are reading this, read it and live with the truth of it all!
WHAT’S WRONG WITH THE BOTH OF YOU?!?!? Is this the way to be acting whenever life isn’t going the way it should be for you? You argue and then you use anger and aim it at each other? You use words that haven’t been thought out carefully with the intention to hurt each other…
Of the four of us, all of us are tired, stressed out and on the edge. The datelines are choking us and splitting us apart, the four of us that have been together since the beginning of our course here…remember that we talked about the four of us? Yea…now however, it’s beginning to look appealing to separate doesn’t it? Well, YOU’RE WRONG! I’m not pointing any fingers but believe me, this pains me as much as it hurts all of you to know that we have been verbally abusing each other before thinking on it carefully…
T, I know you think that we think that you aren’t doing anything to do your part. You are wrong to think like this…why? Think back my sad friend, think back. You have always done your part…you amongst all of us, is the one good at finding information. Wait, hear me out, without you, we would NEVER find out enough information for our tasks. Without you, we would NEVER be able to find any information WITHIN the information that you have found, don’t you see? We rely on you to tell us what theories we can use and where we can find the research or journal to back it up. Without you, we would not be creating A-grade assignments.
S, it’s apparent that you think that T isn’t doing her fair share of the work. but admit it, she IS. Just not the same way as YOU are contributing to the group. Each and everyone of of you in the group are doing your fair share but just differently. Why? Because all of you have your own abilities in doing stuff. You find that it’s hard to cope don’t you? You feel like quitting and just be released from this huge burden, don’t you? But don’t you see? We help each other out when we all need each other. T is in charge of finding the information and providing the knowledge from that information in the BEGINNING of the assignment. You on the other hand is in charge of the ENDING where you provide your abilities to the utmost care.
I know that both of you are stressing but is that a crime? No tough babes, it isn’t. Don’t start blaming each other before you have thought things through. talk to each other about it before jumping to conclusions. Nobody is guilty till the fat woman sings. And in this case, that’s me and I’m not gonna sing for this…
So relax, and chill, think of each other before you begin, think of what the other have to go through before you start piling blames…T did what she did because she is worried of the timeline as well as knowing that the lecturer was leaving soon and no way to stop her from leaving…this is true. So really, you can’t blame her for asking and asking. Think of it as her egging you on to do it faster. If she had never done that, would you say we would have ever handed it up in time?
J on the other hand, last to handle the assignment, is afraid that if we were to hand it up late, it would be her fault. She tries her best to hurry it up, however, T is asking her to hurry up but this causes J to fire up and get annoyed. But would you say it’s T’s fault for doing that? She isn’t at the base worrying with you, in fact, she isn’t capable of doing anything where she is at. The hopelessness of being far away is killing her.
Both of you AREN’T WRONG!!! So just CHILL and THINK before you TALK. Stop bottling up the frustration, just blurt it out! Conflicts begin with bottled up emotions. What would the other party know of what you’re thinking when you do not open that lips of yours and say something? They’re not a mind reader you know…
All in all…I think I am to be blamed the most as I realized I have never really did anything…Of all the four of us, I think that the three of you are capable enough to do the assignments without me…I feel like the needle poking at all of you. The big sack of potatoes that is clinging to your backs…the burden…I know it and you all know it…
It is at times like these that I wonder why I ever joined the course that we’re doing now…perhaps I should have just stayed home and blend into the couch 
What I’m trying to say is that you shouldn’t blame each other, tell each other what you want to say and embrace each other’s abilities and put it to full use. I don’t expect any of you to be reading this but hey, perhaps in a few years, when I’m dead, you’ll start to wonder what I wrote before I died 
and then you’ll probably visit and eventually stumble on this not very well versed post and smile
Just in case you don’t know, at the moment, you guys are the closest to me other than my family and I just can’t bear to see you three fighting with each other over an assignment…and to say that without you three, I would have long been 7 feet under by now…without the entertainment and laughter between the four of us, I would have been far in depression due to the stupid shit I have inside of me and would have killed myself…I hope you three know how much you mean to me to have had me written this much just so that you all would see things through…
Normally…slaves don’t get much…so be grateful
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Cool Shades
Posted on July 23, 2007
Damn…I look cool in shades!
Anyone wanna buy me some of these shades? They happen to cause around RM660 and above and yes, I have damn expensive tastes D:
I happened to be looking at these shades while I was waiting for my mom to pay for my contact lenses (Took this pictures in a optical shop somewhere in TTDI…). I have to say…I had a great time camwhoring for these shades even though people were looking at me with weird looks on their faces
